I can feel his warmth love

Kami x plan untuk bjumpa dis wiken…Sbb lastwiken dah spent time together..Plus kami br pulang dr bhari2 madu di Medan last 2 wiks…So, atas sbb kepenanatan & kewangan, kami bercadang bjumpa nextwiken shja…Lagipun, ada taklimat dan kursus yg perlu saya attend dis wiken…
But…………………
I MISS HIM SOOOO MUCHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sgt2 rindu….
I attended kursus last Wednesday until Friday…It was fun.. jumpa ramai kawan which are my collogues …chit chating & gossiping sbb mmg dah lm x spent time sama cam zaman2 bujang dulu…But at the end of the course, Friday, I felt soooo lonely…Kawan2 still around me…But I keep thinking about him…sampaikan dah xle tumpu pd lecture..Why?..bcoz its wiken already…and I cant live without him on wiken!..Dah tbiasa dgn dia di sisi setiap wiken walaupun on wikdays kami tpisah…Rasa cam lm giler nak sampai ke wiken seterusnya!...
Habis kursus tghari Jumaat…I went back home…Pas solat zohor, I lied down atas katil..try to sleep ..but….. OMG!!..Really miss him!..I miss him!....i miss him!...Tak thn sgt…saya pun kol dia….I was hoping dia ckp, “abg balik tau ptg ni”…..Sgt bharap g2….Tp x….Uhhhh…sgt hampa..but I din tell him….Pendam je sorang2,,but my voice tones dah lain…Dia plak mmg sgt peka kpd sbrg perubahan suara sy walaupun sedikit…and he kept asking what wrong? And I kept telling him nothing wrong…...
Ptg, kul 5pm, pas dia balik keje,he called me…3 times…saya x angkat pun..sbb saya rasa sgt sayu..i cant hear his voice..nnti mesti melalak cam org giler…huhu…Tp saya sms dia…saya tny, “nape abg x balik?”…Dia reply “ oooo, majok sbb abg x balik la ni?”…Saya terus jd nak marah…Boleh dia bls g2…Geram!...
Dia kata, kan plan asalnya nak jumpa nextwik je…Tu yg dia x bli tiket bas. Tp dia mmg ada gak rasa nak balik.Tp, kalo balik rumah saya, xkan xnak blk rantau panjang..nanti ma dia terasa plak kalo ma dia tau....rumah isteri balik..rumah ma x balik…Kalo blk rumah ma, tiga jam driving jugak dr rumah saya..& dia akan sgt penat sbb isnin dah keje, xle cuti..…Ya, kami mmg sgt penat…sejak kawen, hidup x stabil…traveling je…Byk ms habis atas transport…Dr rumah parents saya ke rumah parents dia…ke pre honeymoon,..ke rumah dia sendri….ke honeymoon lagi…ke rumah saudara mara…hectic wikens… So, tu yg liat nak balik rumah sy diswiken tu…Lagipun hari tu, dah elok2 dah plan nak jupe nextwik je sbb saya kene attend taklimat the whole day on Saturday..Sunday plak, saya kat KT ni dah keje..So, cam waste je la kalo dia balik....
Ermmm, I understand dat..Tp saya sgt rindukan dia…I was majok sgt2 …
Then,dia kata dia nak balik dgn kete mlm tu jgk…6 hours drive…Huhhhh, saya marah..x bagi…sgt risau ok….
Dia pun dah mula nak naik angin..dia tnya apa yg saya nak sebenarnya..Kata rindu..Tp bila dia nak drive balik, saya marah…Then, dia diam…as usual..Kalo saya marah2 dia akan diam..X kol….& x reply my msg lgsung…& saya?...i try to keep calm….cuba alihkan phatian dr fikirkan dia…& saya kuar, gi teman adik main tenis ( hobi br adik)…
Pas margrib, I text him…Mintak maaf 4 bad behavior…saya bgtau, saya akan cuba sabar..Jumpa dia nextwik…Menyesal sbb wat dia g2 ptg td..….Then dia reply.. "abg kat Melaka central..Tiket bas kul 9.30pm..Amik abg pg esok yea sayang”…..Huuuuu, I was…………bjujuran lah air mata lg…Rupanya ms dia diam ptg tadi tu, dia tkocoh2 gi stesen bas, serta merta cr tiket balik sini....Sgt tharu ok…Nasib baik tiket ada katanya..Tu pun tinggal 2 je....Bas lain semua habis..huhu…I do feel guilty sbb buat dia kelam kabut g2…but I appreciate very muchhhh what he did to me!...
Abang, thanx 4 all the deep love & care u give me….
I promise to myself……Saya akan jadi isteri yg lebih btimbang rasa…Lebih matang dlm mnguruskan perasaan…..